Assumptions, Judgemental, Heartless

When i met you, i looked forward to seeing you in my dreams, but reality was better cause i saw you.

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The point of extortion is to gain leverage over your competitor and apparently life has a huge leverage on me and i cant do anything bout it. It brings me great grief when i mutter the words I love you and i will always care for you. Because a person like me can't express himself to another but your that special person. I found it rather nice that i could at least express my feelings for you.

The way you look at me with those mischievous eyes still lingers in my dreams. The actual certainty of our love will last. That deceiving smile that i fell for, those lies i ignored, the truth that i so hopefully came out of your mouth, that special person i became when i felt your presence was a beautiful lie. An odd thing to love that deception, the complication but i guess i'm always second best, from my first crush to my first love. The winner doesn't know how to appreciate the type of love that you project.

A single moment of sincerity was hoped upon but sadly you showed no compassion because its human nature to not show weakness for it was easy for that person to be exploited. I guess that i'm not a common human. You exploited and used my weakness and spun that web of love to eat on my grief. I don't ask for much but at least tell me why was it easy for you to do the action you did.

My heart still trembles when i think of you,

My tears run down when i think of you,

I feel my heart with regret because of things ended up,

Cause i think that you hurt your loved ones the most.

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I know the fact that you won't tell me some things and i respect your privacy but that doesn't mean you can parade behind my back and get away with. I won't send you on a guilt trip but i would really appreciate the fact that your honest. I would love it that you would appreciate the fact that i never scold you. Your my daughter but my lover, but i taught, i was a dispensable fling.

I ignore the facts cause i taught you were better than those lies coming from others. I guess trouble knocks on my door every time i look at you.

My deepest passion is to find a trouble maker,

I dream of her honesty,

I wish she would come back into my arms once more,

My hope dies with a big hole in my centre.

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Sincerely,

Persistence

Romeo LoveD Juliet

Now the need to utter rubbish has caught once again.

Let the light bring you towards darkness to see how the blind looks at this corrupt world.

You came to me like the sky that suddenly appears, and as i appreciated you shadowing the sun, you disappear to render to me broken.

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Okay, weeks passed by, finally i got my laptop and my car back but in total it cost up to 3k. This is madness at biblical proportion.

Sing at the tone proper to the song, shoot at the person responsible for all you troubles, act as God for the moment, but don't blame anyone else but yourself. I cant say that i appreciated every gesture you gave me cause for one, it was useless after the incident. Its not my war, i don't knock at peoples door but trouble comes to me in a fashionable manner in which it invites itself over. So its only my fault that i provoke it after a submissive defeat.

Let love guide to all the wrong places as long as it makes the heart happy and the soul complete.

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Sincerely,

Mute

Human Nature, or Mine at least

I got a hole in me now,

Revenge takes a bow,

Whats the point,

Everything still looks plain.

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Are you indecisive when both sides have a strong influence on the outcome and it seems like smiles will come? Its like the most confusing question of all, is zebra's white with black stripes or the other way around? Either way it makes you happy that you solved the riddle. Life is full of decisions which you have to make in order to sustain balance. Not making a decision is a direct decision itself.

Okay, college is going good except for the fact that i went to the wrong floor today -.- and i was already late. Other than that, my car. I cant find a proper work shop that won't con me into paying more or stealing my parts.

Can humans not cheat each other into giving something up? Maybe its human nature? I've noticed that somewhere along the line of honesty, theres a thread missing. Everyones guilty along the way. If your in denial, then you too show another human nature characteristic :)

Don't say something crazy like you love me, cause i know i'd something crazy like believing in it

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Now privilege is something that can be bought or earned through some influential hand. With the influential hand, thats either corruption or just sympathy. We all are corrupted in some way, its just if you believe it thats all. Life gives you time, waste it, and then regret is just human nature :)

Sincerely,

What words play

3,4,5.. dotted line

How do you treat a broken heart,

The same way you treat a wound,

When life brings you a strom,

Why not play in it and see the consequences?

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Okay, so i'm currently adapting to college life. Just wear a new skin over there, converse with them in english if you must to help them improve. The common saying, when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. So me helping is my lemonade to change their thick malay accent to a more proper english accent. We need to help our fellow mates sincerely and not because they want it.

Live life with nothing intended and something will surely shock you. "Slowly take a step forward and not a step back" quote zaim90. I watch people thinking their happy but inside their not, I observe those building their own wall to block happiness, I watch myself being a victim in self destruction. So don't be shocked once you realised that steps to happiness are wrong, follow the flow and crush that wall you build to suffocate yourself.

Okay, okay, my intentions to go college is to further to a higher learning level, but knowledge in this life is just temporary. It might get you a bungalow but it cant get you a first class ticket to the afterlife. I say, do what is necessary to succeed in this life so there won't be any regrets.

Where beams of imagination play,

The memories ideas fade away,

Where playful minds cascade,

Imaginations collaborate,

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Sincerely,

Needs, ends

A Box

If i could just one wish,

I would wish to wake up to that stunning smile,

The feeling our hearts beating in perfect harmony,

Cause i know i wouldn't feel the same with anyone else.

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My life lived like a wondering dog with a bone, impatient and greedy. Sad songs are my medium of communication through out this work. I keep it in till it leaks like a broken radiator, slowly but surely you will see a defect in my performance. I was treated like another fling when i gave you a piece of heart. It still rains in my mind, where the lines overlap are the obvious signs.

Okay, I wanted to turn to right lane when i was on the way to TTDI. Then the first reaction was hitting the brakes and usually it follows with a bang and then fuck. BANG! FUCK!! I hit a matrix from the back cause a useless cab driver didn't use his signal. So i paid the owner of the matrix rm100 but actually it was rm500. Thank GOD. So tmw i'm suppose to go to a half cut garage to salvage the parts to fix my car. Such a fucking hassle.

How do make teamwork work? With enough time, a group will learn each others attributes and they will try to work around them or help each other better themselves. So thats what i did in orientation. I kept my group laughing during "Latihan Dalam Kumpulan" and other activities. Its Baitumal, the zakat that we pay during raya is used for scholarships and to help the less fortunate. So technically i'm going to a Baitumal college, meaning its all religious. DAMN!

How do you suffer when things can get any worse, by putting antiseptic into the wound. So thats what happened when things went south a couple of month ago. We shared and we talked but you kissed. I cant say that i'm happy about that, but i can say that i hope your happy without me and whom ever you get treats you a million times better than me. Distance is the issue at hand, I have no discipline over what my heart wants. I want to and i need to. Might as well start in Mexico and get fucked every time i go finding for happiness cause i know at the of the road is nothing. Its false hope cause in the afterlife only that were most truly happy. So i don't care about if i get used cause i'm used to it. Like a worn out shirt, i get thrown out just as fast as came into your life. So sugar, i'm going down no matter the promise.

Okay okay, I was stuck in orientation. I was gathering at the park. Everyday, just after midnight, if i get some rest, if not then I will be awake till 5.30 to pray. So okay I know that I wont pray when i'm at home but i refused a drink at Lara's. So thats progress and with GOD's will, i didn't pray GOD gave me an accident. A loaded gun to my head, and I pulled. I bit the hand that feeds.

The midnight dream of our futures are gone. What if there was a second chance, only in GOD's will, only determined by fate, only dreamt by flies. I kept holding on, so this is my wrong doing, I put my hand into the fire when i knew what was the outcome hoping for a different outcome. Stay on your knees, count your blessing, scream. Meet me in outer space.

The first I gazed at your smile,

time and space were paralyzed,

I saw the universe in a blink,

I dwell in Paradise, when i look at your smile.

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Sincerely,

Justanotherused

Ends Meat

Inspiration, my inspiration was from my unlucky encounters. So with a tear of happiness i lose my rhythm to write.

I hit the bottle,

When i lose something i love,

I smoke up,

When i lose the thing i want the most

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The reason why i stopped was cause of you, and the reason why my bad habits came back is especially cause of you.

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I sing of love cause it exist, thru your eyes i see everything i want. I scream at reality cause of its honesty. I might not be hottest guy around but i know to make you happy emotionally. A chance is what i ask for. Make me the only exception, it might be the best decision you make.

My mind travels, so when i leave this world. I hope that your happy cause i know you feel rite when i'm leaving. I say something sweet to remind you who loves more than anything. When i get back, i see another guy. Tears run down my face. "This what happens when you leave" says she.

Under estimate love and it will shock you

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I'm not complex,

I love you and thats it,

Your better than my ex,

I'd sacrifice my life for our love.

You let me down,

I said its fine,

You were everything,

For that i lost my life.

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Sincerely,

Songs and fairy-tales

Make believe

I'll wait till the oceans run dry just to hug you again.

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Take a can drink, see if you can crush the tin. The test of true strength, it doesn't matter wheter your tired. It shows your will to impress, if you cant then maybe your modest. I wanted to become a Advanced Parker and i got what i wanted, with training. Its not a miracle but the programme that you make to truly succeed.

In times of desperation, who do you go to? If you answered God, then the Almighty is only to you when His desperate too. So whens that? I know i don't pray but it doesn't hurt to ask for his help, its like gambling, the stakes may not be on your side, try your luck. Hopefully you hear winner winner chicken dinner.

The moon is your symbol,

You disappear from time to time,

But when i see you,

You brighten up those lost nights.

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Okay, so rite now, in my life, i'm wrongly accused for saying a certain bad word to certain someone. The hell -.- Have more compelling evidence and not point your finger at the first bad boy that comes to mind -.- You want trouble, i got my chance now.

The lucky heart who she replaced, i hope you make happier than i could have ever made. Next time you point that finger at me showing that you succeeded, i'll break it. Shes not a prize, not a trophy that you can hold up. Shes the girl that you show off regardless of how she looks like. I was happy with you but i'm happier that your with someone that can make you smile again. Bury knee deep in specks of sand i cant walk in, i watch alone as you live your new life.

The velvet sky lights up,

The way you showed me the light,

I see the moons defects from a far,

Like you but thats what i attracted too.

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Sincerely,

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