20101204

Dance with an Angel

The beat in my heart is the bass, and the line falls in.
quote Lucky13

I drive with one rule, use your heart.

As you may know that I am not single, but that does not mean I am any different. My heart still beats but only for Ezza Melina. My lungs filled with air mixed with love, impossible as it may sound but you need to meet Ezza Melina, yes she is that special. A one of kind heart more exclusive than a Bugatti Veyron SS with 1,200 break-horsepower. The emotions she gives me is better than any piece of technology known to man, giving me feelings like no other in this world.

We breath everyday just to get by, most of us, but not me, not any more. She has opened my senses to a point where I can expect the moon to fall, the air glitters with venom, the sea filled with fresh water. My vision does not blur when I think, my thoughts concentrated and focused just to better myself. With self-improvement under way, we can start our plan by starting world peace right Shayang?

She makes me feel remarkable, from unappreciated till fully loved. Explanation- How does a bee sting kill the bee? It might not seem relative but do not look at the box. She helps me think of the box, the foundation, theory and practicality of the box. With that in mind, you need extensive knowledge of methods of creating the box and she gives me motivation, inspiration and dedication. Ezza Melina is my Intel i-7 quad-core processor.

How do you drive straight with no steering wheel? How do you think ahead without looking back? Easy, inspiration from Ezza Melina gives me the guidance, the light as people would say. Not overwhelming, calming is the word; not difficult, more simple than blinking. Drive yourself with your heart, not with your mind, differentiate your needs and wants. I know its hard but find it in you to speak your mind and let yourself shine. Light filled darkness, like a bulb switched on, that is how Ezza Melina came into my life.

Words are my life, without them, I can not express how this heart feels. She provides the words not in my mouth but through the heart she so solely owns. Whispers of words, gasps of phrases, shouts of poems. Amazing as it sounds, not possible without the love is receive from Ezza Melina. My Munchkin helps me speak, write. Practically my sound box, my brains blood, my hearts pressure. Keeping me afloat in this society that constantly criticises. Not a shield but the person I have beside me preparing for war.

I love you Ezza Melina!

The rain comes and goes everyday,
The gloomy days pass up by,
The imagine slowly dances in my mind,
The wind gently escapes my lungs,
The ease of the moment comes alive,
The love I receive is to die for,
The moment stands with me, Loving you Ezza Melina.
quote Lucky13

Truly beginning of the 16th of the that falls September wise,
Truly the moment I see the ignition of hope surfacing to top,
Truly I seize the moment and sneaks a glimpse into the future,
Truly my past puddles would dry creating no crater,
Truly as this moment may be where the beginning of something seized at the appropriate puddle comes and stays to wash away this man's gloomy days.
quote Lucky13

Sincerely,
Boyfriend.

20101130

Proposal

Speak the mind, it tells the truth
quote Lucky13

We search in life to find the better half of survival, What we find might be the wrong one, To my understanding of our situation, We may breath each others air and live, We hold each other above the deep water, We dance in the rain to wash our worries, I break the silence to finally wish, dream again and pursuit passions. 

All in all, we keep ourselves fairly weight, Leaning towards each other faults, Giving but no expecting, That's what I call unconditional at its best, Reason being is cause we bring the best out of each other, Like to birds of a feather we are the same but different in some manners, Compensating by compromising to even the surface.

I love you so dearly, like never before have I felt this raging roar, Because we love each other, For better for worst, So will you save from this burdened curse, And speak your mind, When I ask you, To be my Girlfriend?

I never tire of loving you so dearly,
With every tier falling into loves paradise,
I love you with every tear from my heart.
quote Lucky13

L is for the way Look at me,
O for Obviously curious by me,
V is Very Vwery extraordinary,
E is enticingly in love by you.
quote Lucky13

Sincerely,
Happy

20101121

Love.

I was once cynical, now she's better than a miracle.
quote Lucky13

How do you say "I love you" when you leave me breathless? Its easy, it can only be done with the limitless love from Ezza Melina. Here's how its done.

Some things fit perfectly, but we surpass perfection. I am her positive to her negative, I give her strength when she needs it the most. Its not possible when with any other person, but I love that because that makes her even more special. When she needs it, I give it with expecting nothing in return because that is true love at its finest. I love you.

Imagine how perfectly your arms wrap around me like a present just waiting to be unwrapped. We'll do this thing we call life together okay Sayang. Through thick or thin, I still see the light at the end of our tunnel. Rain or shine Sayang, my arms just open for you, its vacant for your love even when its full of it. Rain or shine, we'll dance together till the song finishes, then we'll continue smiling okay Sayang. I love you because I wouldn't have it any other way.

Where my heart meets love, its as perfect as our lips joining for a kiss under the moonlight Princess. I do it because you sit on the royal thrown of my heart, not giving orders but just listening to the things I say to you. Its a stage I build for me to show you how much you mean to me. I say honest things like, you look beautiful without make up, because you being natural is best thing I can admire. I love you because its you.

How my heart stops beating, and only the love you give me is the only that keeps me breathing. That is also how the air I breath doesn't have Ezza Melina written all over, but has the essence of care, warmth, beauty, secure, love written all over it. You can't seem to realise how special you are because of your modesty, but I love that because I can show you how special you are. You deserve everything, even when everything isn't enough Sayang. I love you because I wouldn't have your love any other way.

I love the way my mind has so many things to say but summarises it by saying I love you so softly in your ear Sayang. I imagine the perfect sunset (even when every sunset is perfect when shared with someone as special as you) when I say I love you. When I say I love you, the fire in my heart grows stronger with every breath taken in between saying those sweet 3 words. I love loving you so dearly.

Have I told you how beautiful you are today Sayang? You say "I didn't see you today". I say "You don't have to, cause every word you speak, my subconscious hears your beauty speaking to me". Hence, have I told you how beautiful you look today Sayang? It might seem a lot but I receive these feelings from you, and I channel it to say honest things bout you Ezza. I love loving you unconditionally because that's the only way I know how to.

I point to the north and south, no matter where I look, I see you everywhere. Call it crazy but some would say that love blinds. Please, may I remind you that true love does not blind but open your eyes. With our love Sayang, we would bring far better than Obama. We would touch one heart at a time, giving it strength to move. Because true love is pure and our intentions are pure. I love loving that smile you always give me.

With the brightness from the sun,
From the early dusk to the late dawn,
With no cares in the world left drawn,
In the sea of I love you's I would drown,
You fell for someone who acted like a clown,
Its un-clown-ditional love spoken.
quote Lucky13

I too built a bridge to fine, happiness
But to find that it is not, something
You would build alone, solo
Nonetheless but, with
Someone who gives you a, purpose
To wake up every morning just, to
Make the holder of, my
Heart and soul, smile
Like never before, because
These feelings you give, me
Are the reason why, I
Awake every morning, Sayang.
quote Lucky13

How your love seems so perfect,
With complications here and there,
Seems so difficult but with every conflict,
We walk a step ahead together as one,
Because communication is our best asset,
And we leave no stone unturned,
Even when in the future we would laugh,
And say I love you more than ever.
quote Lucky13

Sincerely,
Umar Loves Ezza.

20101110

Accounts.

Life is an account, and my Sayang keeps me balanced.
quote Lucky13

If I was to explain how happy I am right now in my life, open a dictionary and try to find a word better than happy, you'll see my picture with Ezza watching the sun hide itself beyond the horizon on a waterfront.

Life would seem to be at its lowest before karma would repay its debt to you, and somehow it was gift wrapped in the form of my Sweetheart, Ezza Melina. It was a gift that I had to fix, mend her broken heart before I could be placed into it. It was a gift so amazing, my dedication in life is to show her happiness. It was a gift of love.

As we watch the horizon change into its pajamas, we shared our first sunset, but don't worry Sayang. Because there is more to come, I promise on that okay. I had the pleasure of sharing my favourite Chicken Chop store only few has had the chance to experience. The bond between us is stronger than anything explainable, better than perfect and beyond hugs and kiss. Its the bond between Umar Hakim and his Sayang, Ezza Melina.

How our hands fit so perfectly, how we understand each other, how we finish each others sentence, how we laugh at the lamest things, how we smile at each others presence, how we make each other feel, how we constantly give and take, how we comfort each other, how we reason with each other, how you would fit in my arms, and how the world stops when were together. Thats how special we are my Love.

Let life be its pilot and steer me into disaster,
Let you come and rescue me from total destruction,
Its natural to feel this sensation once in a while,
Its spectacular to feel this sensation constantly too,
Because my Sayang, only you can give me this,
This amazing feeling of happiness and love,
All in just a simple gesture.
quote Lucky13

I am thankful with everything you give me,
Whether its that heart-stopping smile,
Or maybe that warm feeling in my heart,
And butterflies in my stomach,
I know that is a single serving taste,
Of something more than Love.
quote Lucky13

Sincerely,
HandwrittenAffection.

20101105

Sober, but still drunk.

Its law of attraction and then some more.
quote Lucky13

I'll keep this simple and plain.

When people would say "I wanna see your glow". I say "I'm here and not going anywhere". People would ponder thinking of how this glow would resemble. I'll make their life easier okay, Ezza Melina brings the best out of me. I will stop the world from spinning like Superman did to save Lois Lane.

When people would say "Are you sure of her?". I say "I am committed to making her happy, appreciated and smile". People would still wonder, how committed is he this time. I will show them by recording a single day with her. It might seem to much, but I know I can't please my Sayang enough. So everyday is a new day!

When people would say "Why do you seem different?". I say "Its cause she's better than any drug, better than any amount of alcohol". People would still question, what makes you think that this time would be different. Its simple, its Ezza Melina people!

When people would say "Why her?". I say "You don't get it, i'll introduce you to her. Then ask me again". People would think, why is she special. I reply, find me one other person that can actually start world peace. She has changed people, she has a heart brighter than the sun people!

After all these questions, I would say; When I look into her eyes, I see a happy man, I see a person that has changed for the better, I see a man willing to risk his life in order for others to enjoy theirs. Because Ezza Melina, has the power to change me into a better man. And I am definitely in for the long haul.

The clouds before should share, What
They would call a perfect loaf, A
Slice of heaven too big, For
A person to handle himself, So
Luckily when I have her, I
Am not greedy and, Want
To share it with everyone, Hehe
Especially her.
quote Lucky13

Even if you gained weight,
My feelings for you won't change,
Even if you got into an accident,
Its beyond physical attraction,
Even if you studied in U.S.A,
Distance is just a number,
Even if you did me wrong,
Were here to correct each others mistakes,
Even if you stop smiling,
I know that won't happen cause my objective in life now,
Is to make smile Sayang,
Even if you seem down,
I know just what to say to turn that frown upside down,
Because through out my life,
I have never been more determine to satisfy,
My Angel, Princess and Sayang.
quote Lucky13

Sincerely,
Smile:)

20101102

More Than Karma.

Some people say things can't get any better, its because it didn't happen to them yet
quote Lucky13

This is how the Sun would distance itself just enough for the Earth to appreciate it, now I get the meaning. The balance required, the law of attraction between these two is amazing. Complicated but yet understandable.

Its not the words you say but how you say it that gives me this incredible feeling, so hard to summarize it in just a few words. So this is for you Ezza.

Lets begin by relaxing into the cold mornings where I would still wonder why I'm awake, but then I suddenly remember; its for my Sayang. And me not being a morning person, I would force myself, because I have set my day, week, life to see that smile that still gives me that childish crush feeling. So this what happens when I wake up early in the morning regardless if the world ended.

She changed a reckless man into a careful being. So technically she has been a good change in my life. I am grateful that God gave me this blessing in a form of an angel named Ezza Melina. She might be a saint when it comes to others, but in my eyes, she's an angel missing her halo and wings. Every soul that she touched, she has given profound change. Some how, her pure heart gives everyone positive energy. It doesn't make sense, but it takes a person that has been moved by her to know, and luckily, I am able to express it with precise detail.

She isn't an open book where you would assume, she is more delicate than just pieces of paper telling a story. She is an open book in which blank pages are there for her to write her story. Her independence in which she earned through out her life, has let her to be very agile and adaptive in life. Her glue that holds the pages together, is her amazing personality, but don't let me spoil the fun of meeting her.

Today was the best, the perception of an angel is a figure in white, with a glowing halo and soft light feathers for wings. So today, I was driving in the car and my heart stopped the moment I saw her. In her pure white baju kurung, with the sun light angled to give this calming glow behind her. It was as if the world had gone right, no more confrontations, no war. That feeling doesn't come easy for a person who has experienced what people would call a life changing moment. But maybe it does come easy cause that life changing moment came from the same person.

I want Ezza Melina to know that this world has a silver lining everywhere, and that I am always here for her. If my world doesn't happen as I assume it would, she should know that her smile has the effect to balance even my gloomiest days. The simple structure of a smile formed by her is enough to make me feel appreciated, cared for and best of all, happy. But this post isn't about me, its for you. So...

With arms wide open, a smile and the saying 'Just the Way You Are' is enough for me Sayang.

Horizons seems closer, So
Look no further, As
I am here, And
Was waiting for something better, But
I got more, Than
Any man had asked for, And
I am grateful its you, Cause
Ezza Melina you, Yourself
Gave me these incredible feelings.
quote Lucky13

I was torn so wide and what was inside, was darkness,
But on September 16th, I saw a glimpse of light,
Hope was shining in a form of something good,
And when I was brave to explore because,
What does a broken man have to lose if he has nothing,
And when I found the source of this pure light,
I stood by her with a firm grasp of reality,
Kissed her cheek and gave both of us a sudden realisation,
That there's something more than karma.
quote Lucky13

Sincerely,
Princess'sTadwinks.

20101026

Self titled single.

For worth ratio, its 6.8 billion to one chance of finding you
quote Lucky13

Subject relating to the title, this post has a special intention to explain the relationship between the writer and Ezza Melina. So the story has sensitive and specific values.

When I'm with her, some how, we relentlessly understand each other. We give and take, and this odd feeling emerges from the dust. We have this balanced equation that is stable depending on conditions. We introduce the catalyst which is communication and the chemical becomes an unbreakable bond.

When I talk to her, we lay the foundation to build a structure that can't be broken. We have an earthquake and yes we do panic, but we throw caution in the air. We stand strong for each other because we compensate for each others weakness, and yes it works. And I am confident to say that this building will stay standing even if a terrorist crashed a plane into us.

Sure we have our boiling point, what substance in this doesn't have it? We are still human but when I'm with her, I feel more than supernatural, beyond phenomenal. This is due to the chemistry we both share, or at least that's what I hope. Some how floating above cloud 9 isn't practical, that's why she reminds me to not overload the processor.

She is air to my lungs; but when I'm with her I feel breathless.
She is the cloud to my sky; the day won't seem right without her.
She is the tear in my eye; emotions she gives me are just to cry for.
She is the queen to my Majesties thrown; this country won't function peacefully without her.
She is the cotton in my pillow; the comfort she gives me is just magical.
She is the bullet in my gun; security to know that she's there.
She is the words in my book; without her, its impossible for me to write this post.
She is the petrol in my car; the drive she gives me to better myself is unspoken.
She is the numbers in an equation; I'm balance on way or another.
She is the workaholic in an office; determination to complete what I started.
She is the Shieldtox to my mosquito; rids of the self-destruction in me.
She is the lyric in my songs; some how poetry won't exist is she wasn't there.
She is the 1,183 horsepower in a Veyron ss; I can't do anything without the power she gives me.
She is the sun to my morning; inviting and some how you miss it at night.
She is the light to a dark room; to light the path and lead me from astray.
She is the reason I smile; more often than before.

Now it may seem that I have overrated her capabilities but I know that the tip of the ice berg.

You gave this being, what
Others would die for, and
Somehow I'm thankful, that
Someone has a heart, as
Big as the imagination can see.
quote Lucky13

I am alive again and it feels that I can feel my pulse again,
I am breathing normally even though air is thin in cloud 9,
I am what would people say 'Head over Heals',
I am happy for what you make me realise,
And that is, that you would be beside me no matter what.
quote Lucky13

Sincerely,
UmarHakim.

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