The Staple

Forgetting what it felt like to kiss and get away with sin, but who am i actually running from? Come and tell me when its time to repent. Degeneration, the fall of our youth or me. Amazing how the world revolves around the things you do, one mistake and the world watches you as it hopes for you to make another mistake, i made a mistake but the world look east and west. So is the mistake i made another different concept?

Okay, so now i have a bong pipe in my mouth and enjoying the smoke that comes out of my nose. I need, i want, i wish for something amazing to happen but i need to embrace what i have before adding more bricks. "Brick by boring brick"- Paramore. Mines not boring but i make everything seems so dull. Like the pen you stab but the sword you hoist high in the air.

What is life worth doing, when life is full of rejection

quote AltasRhythm

And so i continue the next night,

I found a post that never got edited and was left alone. The story wasn't told, its not finsih but hey, we cant finish what we wanted to never end rite. So heres a click and paste of the post, unedited ;)

I followed the ktm track and picked her up at 7-11 with a cab. Amazingly i had the saddest day today. Wish i can convey the story but it just hurts thinking of it. Now i know that the nicest people, never get anything in this heart aching life style. Only a picture can remind me of how i felt for you, how you felt for me. How things became.

The post ends there.

On the other side of the truth, i wear a shield which i wished was bulletproof, people get shoot down, we don't need good headlines, just life lines.

Imagine if you can relive the moment, imagine staring love rite in her eyes, saying;

I live in this fairytale,

Imagination is for real,

Societies underdog,

My future with you is still in fog.

Lucky13;

So rite now, in my life my,

Passions; To write what ever i think of

Dreams; For a happier life, but i'm happy enough for what i have

Wishes; Gamble when the stakes are on my side

Sincerely,

ChipnDale

And Hey Darling

The concept of a perfect life is you being happy and dodging their misfortunes. Notice how i used dodge instead of any other word to dismiss misfortunes. A concept of a perfect life is to accept anything that happens and blend emotion with instinct. What ever happens is another concept

So what if i was separated by a certain tragedy from my other half or mate as people would call it. I would try my best to see it thru and hopefully i'll see her at the end of this dark tunnel.

Only lies help the cheaters

quote lucky13

Okay, so since i updated, i'm still happy with my sort of well being, who can stop my cough but me and still i smoke like a bitch once supply wont run dry. I was came into close contact with a supernatural being when i was at the park. Its one thing to park after midnight but a whole different game once it hits 3am and your foot is still in the park.

Expect the worse and it might come but good will always prevail at the of the war. Doesnt matter what war, problem is; the line between good and bad is blurred constant by constant boosting of fellow parties. So who the fuck am i suppose to follow? The one who promises 3 square meals or the one that offers freedom with the cost of blood shed, if you can wait till i get home.

I noticed that robots and humans are practically the same, they can be controlled by a remote device. A robot with a brain and emotion can be influenced to subconsciously do evil indirectly to the those who don't deserve it. We do it but at a certain someone who we shunt cause of difference, i may say bad things but its cause its funny and hopefully no one gets hurt. Am i programmed?

Okay okay, my driving license is hopefully in my pocket by the 12th of April, cause i cant wait to get that freedom. I choose freedom, and it does come with blood shed, bare with it and make sure my will for survival or existence is strong. I may be smiling outside, screaming in the inside but i know we all plan for a certain chain of events to happen to better ourselves in the present of hopefully in the future.

I know that eventually love with fall into the business category, loving will turn into a job and that ruins the fun of expression. Tell me how does a moment of sincerity work? Is love sincere? I ask this question, when i get a certain someone, i say another load of shit but i guess thats how love starts. Everything else seems to exist, you and her are living the concept of the perfect life, i guess thats where it goes down the drain.

I have no special request but only think of a loved one, keep him/her close to your heart and settle your differences now before you follow the concept of a perfect life.

Blink once and possibly miss an important moment that could alter your life

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

Black eye

Apple.

An apple a day keeps the doctor, a stick a day keeps reminding me that life is temporary.

I'm not a bad person but the cycle of karma makes me feel that bad things only happens to bad people.

If i were to shout at the top of my lungs, its just a boy crying wolf, not world rite. Why am i constantly ignored? I guess its karma, change is good.

Portraits of familiar faces keeps me safe, one glance and their there even tho the distance is uncountable. I wish there was a portrait of me, somewhere, it doesn't matter, its not the location but the company.

Okay, life story, gonna camp with my thinking cap. Gonna be a lot of changes to my current but we evolve and learn that evolution, or for me college, is just another phase in life. A chapter maybe that has to be opened.

I heard a story earlier abt a certain someone and their loved one, he didnt hear the words he wanted to hear, but no matter what he would love her and he said; "I'm ready to leave this country". He boarded a plane few hours later to further his studies. Dude, its loves challenge, when you come back, and she waiting, things would never be same

Your current favourite song; I would never be the same, if we ever meet again

Cheer up, go fishing ;)

Have you ever had that feeling of envy and happiness at the same time? You see all your friends, they have a loved one but your happy for them and you wait for your turn. My turn might come late but i'm sure its gonna be magical. "you never plan for anything magical, it just happens" quote Valentines Day.

Okay okay, so rite now, i'm not depressed anymore, which is good rite? I flood the tweet deck or spam as people would say. I feel happier inside, i don't smoke as much as i used to. A smile is in my head even tho i don't show it.

I leave scars on my hands so i wont forget who i was, what i was going thru in my life, when life shunts you, keep a reminder for yourself. I'm not emo, screw that -.- i'm just very sentimental.

Its 5am now; cause day and night, the lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night.

Love a person for who they are and not what you want to love about them, their imperfections are what makes them who they are. We were raised to be perfect but soon along the way, we can never be, not even with the right will. So love is about opening your expectations to newer things and accepting their so called defects.

So at this point of life my;

Passions are to open my mind to newer things/willing to learn

Dreams are to better myself

Wish i can get there no matter how high the wall is

Sincerely,

Plum, grape, Mint

Sims 2

Its amazing how Sims can be change to Sins. But their game is some sort of get away for all those who wants to restart their life rite? Thats madness to magnet for me. The force of attraction and hope for a new life.

Hears a sound track from their game

Pressure-Paramore

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just dont let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cause I fear I might break
And I fear I cant take it
Some night I'll lie awake
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And theres nothing else to show
For all of the days that were spent
carrying away from hope

Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
We're better off without you

Without you

Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
But I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
its getting closer now
We're better off without you

Feel the pressure
its getting closer now
You're better off without me

Pressure-Paramore

So what is the games message here?

Whats my mind fiddling with nowaday ah?

Sincerely,

Silencer

Free!

I i had a song, i wish it can be covered acoustic-ly. Cause every acoustic song makes it sound more emotional but nicer from the original one.

The same goes for me, but i was the acoustic version. Finally for one night i feel no depression. Its amazing cause i'm sick at the same time and i didnt smoke a lot. ba da ba ba da da ba da......

Day and night!

So what if time is temporary

quote lucky13

To decide the fate of someone is monu-mental but its easier to decide your own, so why the fuck are you clouding me life la bastard. I fear i might break

So whats new other than the sudden release of depression from my life, i'm gonna do my LCCI, where you ask. My mum's college, she doesnt fucking own it, chill, shes a lecturer there so yeah. LCCI is like A-levels for accounting. Hopefully i can further somewhere good after this.

Okay music session; Now i'm currently listening to "Here we go again- Paramore" and waiting for Fever by BFMV

How do i control this sudden mood swing?

Keep tabs of reason

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

New found glory

What?

 Well go get your shovel
   And we'll dig a deep hole
   To bury the castle, bury the castle
   Go get your shovel
   And we'll dig a deep hole
   To bury the castle, bury the castle

What can life offer a man that can't get anything?

I wish i was in a fantasy, i don't care wheter its for a second. As long as i can live a better life.

Hahahah, even i laugh at my misfortunes cause only i acknowledge them. I'm not mad at myself, but at least i see the light at the end of this tragic tunnel.

What if my subconscious dies when i find something better than air?

Then pictures aren't just pictures, their an expression of that bittersweet moment.

I'm sure the realisation of my existence is tragic. I'm not mad but your reputation( cause thats the only thing that people look upon) dies with you so make an impression.

So let me give you an update on my life as this moment i reflect upon myself

Passions; The colourful flavours of smoke in my lungs

Dreams; For a better tmw by which it may never come

Wishes; For another shot

aimbot

Why is life worth living?

What the fuck are we suppose to do?

Ask those questions, weight your happy moments and your depressing moments.

We get disappointed every turn you make, in any form.

Accomplishments aren't enough for those who aim high enough until they reach the point of realising that what are the accomplishments worth. Fuck. Imagine if something could trouble you, then something even worse comes along. And when you search for that something that you think can make you happy, its gone.

Am i suppose to leave a mark on this world?

For what?

Whats it good for?

People will only realise you once your dead. When is this gonna end?

Sincerely,

Just-ice