20081110

this was a caring,loveable memory

11.3 first date with her (: coffee bean > tgv > j.co > coffee bean
29.3 ou with her
10.4 the sky fell and world was in darkness. esah wants to be frens
11.4 my world fell apart with the thunder stricks upon me
16.4 why did you leave me? is it cause you saw rain coming. it will rain for while. after it sets will you be there again?
17.4 walking down a dark alley way, i see curses' and hear valentine. my valentine was a unforgettable experience. opening a black gate, wat will ly on the other side?
26.4 after seeing my life break down into a dark and narrow corridor. pls esah


cant you see im easily bothered by persistance
one step from lashing at you


life :)/(
in life you need a thing to keep you going on. you kept me moving forward until the rain poured on my freeway. it will be best to get some rest but i wanted to drive on. once the rain subside, will you be beside me and stick with. if theres an accident i will be the nice guy that takes the blame. getting shot in the heart so i can spend my last breath with you is thing i don mind happening to me. but happyness is missing from this complicated equation. i might be coughing blood but your beside me comforting as i slowly fade into the light but your keeping me relaxed. you gave me a new rhythm in music and i like wat you gave me. i listen to it every night. you make f.c.p.r.e.m.i.x feel like a theme. bleeding and churning. why? every morning before even thinking, i get my phone and say 'good morning' hoping your there and wishing that your ok in life. hearing you sad makes me unhappy. makes me wanna cry. that day in o.u. , holding your hand made me one. felt like two worlds connected. if i had a chance to relive that day i will give you my world. even my spot at 'seri beringin' is wat i call my slice of heaven is thinking spot. thinking about life and you. when the skies turn grey is when i play with thunder. waste me life just thinking about my next move just so your not disturbed. my line of vision is blurry so my future isnt just in pen and paper already. i still have a chance, an opportunity to make you happy with life thinking you made me your life

Story bout you and me

well baby we dont need tk rush things. we should just take one step at a time and dont need to rush. i will never find another lover sweeter than you cause there is more things to do in life not just to smoke or get drunk and become a crazy person. well im here to help you. thats why you choose me and i choose you. i hope we might last long. longer than anyone. some people say "$4&rL--4, why you should you go baby" well i don care watever they say. as long as that im with you and when you need me. there is only one sweetest guy. everytime when weekends and holiday, when i miss you, i just look at your photo looking at that cute teddy bear face. i don even care wat they think bout you? i just care bout you and your save and sound. and because of me, i help you to stop drinking and smoking. thats why my ex's don regret coupling with me. even my frens they cant let me go. they're just like family and i likt that. well i guess this is all. and its time for me to go to bed


her confessions to me are making me happy but at time of this year
Yo[u] and me
Tear drops when happyness come to life. you came to my life with love and happiness and im so so happy and out of words. beauty is a word that cant be described but you bring every element into it. im grateful about the fact that you controlled me on the jetty in tioman. if it was my frens, tioman will be the place i died. no one can control me. but when your in my presence i feel this warm feeling
within me. like as if your hand on my heart controlling every move i make. cause you picked up my broken heart and put it back to place. like i said you complete my heart and life. if i have you <3 my heart doesnt need to beat. i got you as my life support. during the @&th of june is the most joyful day i ever had. the full moon with no clouds in the sky. one special star and a normal person are officially together. sayang your the reason i can fly cause your the reason i feel so alive. today we hugged so few times :( i miss you, i wish we live very close so i can see you after skool. so i can see that little girl named $4&rl--4 with her cute joyful smile. before i sleep i imagine your cute smile. it makes me sleep easily but the other night i was stress, you gave me a simple solution. just sleep you said. i took panadol and slept with your assistance. woke up threw up. i was so fucking stressed until i punch the wall until my hand went numb. i didnt wanna tell you this cause i hate worrying you. the whole night i couldnt sleep cause of the pain. but sayang in my head was a mental picture of your face. that made me sleepy. i eventually slept with your help. thank you. i love you :) when i think things thru im the luckiest guy to get the sweetest girl. when im sick your by my side helping me and asking to go sleep. "get some rest". your exact words. sayang you promise me that you wanna leave your hair long cause of my prom dream. hehehe. well if that dream happens then i noe that we'll be together till were 6 feet under. then we wait at heavens gates. thanks to you i didnt drink. if not confirm i would be so drunk until i puke. i noe thats fucked. and now im trying to stop smoking. its too hard sayang but your here to help me along the way rite sayang. your love beats that addiction. i don ever wanna lose you sayang ): if i do my life will be depressing. i would go back to my bad habits.


my confessions to you. hope you read this and remember

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