3,4,5.. dotted line

How do you treat a broken heart,

The same way you treat a wound,

When life brings you a strom,

Why not play in it and see the consequences?

quote lucky13

Okay, so i'm currently adapting to college life. Just wear a new skin over there, converse with them in english if you must to help them improve. The common saying, when life gives you lemons, you make lemonade. So me helping is my lemonade to change their thick malay accent to a more proper english accent. We need to help our fellow mates sincerely and not because they want it.

Live life with nothing intended and something will surely shock you. "Slowly take a step forward and not a step back" quote zaim90. I watch people thinking their happy but inside their not, I observe those building their own wall to block happiness, I watch myself being a victim in self destruction. So don't be shocked once you realised that steps to happiness are wrong, follow the flow and crush that wall you build to suffocate yourself.

Okay, okay, my intentions to go college is to further to a higher learning level, but knowledge in this life is just temporary. It might get you a bungalow but it cant get you a first class ticket to the afterlife. I say, do what is necessary to succeed in this life so there won't be any regrets.

Where beams of imagination play,

The memories ideas fade away,

Where playful minds cascade,

Imaginations collaborate,

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

Needs, ends

A Box

If i could just one wish,

I would wish to wake up to that stunning smile,

The feeling our hearts beating in perfect harmony,

Cause i know i wouldn't feel the same with anyone else.

quote lucky13

My life lived like a wondering dog with a bone, impatient and greedy. Sad songs are my medium of communication through out this work. I keep it in till it leaks like a broken radiator, slowly but surely you will see a defect in my performance. I was treated like another fling when i gave you a piece of heart. It still rains in my mind, where the lines overlap are the obvious signs.

Okay, I wanted to turn to right lane when i was on the way to TTDI. Then the first reaction was hitting the brakes and usually it follows with a bang and then fuck. BANG! FUCK!! I hit a matrix from the back cause a useless cab driver didn't use his signal. So i paid the owner of the matrix rm100 but actually it was rm500. Thank GOD. So tmw i'm suppose to go to a half cut garage to salvage the parts to fix my car. Such a fucking hassle.

How do make teamwork work? With enough time, a group will learn each others attributes and they will try to work around them or help each other better themselves. So thats what i did in orientation. I kept my group laughing during "Latihan Dalam Kumpulan" and other activities. Its Baitumal, the zakat that we pay during raya is used for scholarships and to help the less fortunate. So technically i'm going to a Baitumal college, meaning its all religious. DAMN!

How do you suffer when things can get any worse, by putting antiseptic into the wound. So thats what happened when things went south a couple of month ago. We shared and we talked but you kissed. I cant say that i'm happy about that, but i can say that i hope your happy without me and whom ever you get treats you a million times better than me. Distance is the issue at hand, I have no discipline over what my heart wants. I want to and i need to. Might as well start in Mexico and get fucked every time i go finding for happiness cause i know at the of the road is nothing. Its false hope cause in the afterlife only that were most truly happy. So i don't care about if i get used cause i'm used to it. Like a worn out shirt, i get thrown out just as fast as came into your life. So sugar, i'm going down no matter the promise.

Okay okay, I was stuck in orientation. I was gathering at the park. Everyday, just after midnight, if i get some rest, if not then I will be awake till 5.30 to pray. So okay I know that I wont pray when i'm at home but i refused a drink at Lara's. So thats progress and with GOD's will, i didn't pray GOD gave me an accident. A loaded gun to my head, and I pulled. I bit the hand that feeds.

The midnight dream of our futures are gone. What if there was a second chance, only in GOD's will, only determined by fate, only dreamt by flies. I kept holding on, so this is my wrong doing, I put my hand into the fire when i knew what was the outcome hoping for a different outcome. Stay on your knees, count your blessing, scream. Meet me in outer space.

The first I gazed at your smile,

time and space were paralyzed,

I saw the universe in a blink,

I dwell in Paradise, when i look at your smile.

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

Justanotherused

Ends Meat

Inspiration, my inspiration was from my unlucky encounters. So with a tear of happiness i lose my rhythm to write.

I hit the bottle,

When i lose something i love,

I smoke up,

When i lose the thing i want the most

quote lucky13

The reason why i stopped was cause of you, and the reason why my bad habits came back is especially cause of you.

quote lucky13

I sing of love cause it exist, thru your eyes i see everything i want. I scream at reality cause of its honesty. I might not be hottest guy around but i know to make you happy emotionally. A chance is what i ask for. Make me the only exception, it might be the best decision you make.

My mind travels, so when i leave this world. I hope that your happy cause i know you feel rite when i'm leaving. I say something sweet to remind you who loves more than anything. When i get back, i see another guy. Tears run down my face. "This what happens when you leave" says she.

Under estimate love and it will shock you

quote lucky13

I'm not complex,

I love you and thats it,

Your better than my ex,

I'd sacrifice my life for our love.

You let me down,

I said its fine,

You were everything,

For that i lost my life.

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

Songs and fairy-tales

Make believe

I'll wait till the oceans run dry just to hug you again.

quote lucky13

Take a can drink, see if you can crush the tin. The test of true strength, it doesn't matter wheter your tired. It shows your will to impress, if you cant then maybe your modest. I wanted to become a Advanced Parker and i got what i wanted, with training. Its not a miracle but the programme that you make to truly succeed.

In times of desperation, who do you go to? If you answered God, then the Almighty is only to you when His desperate too. So whens that? I know i don't pray but it doesn't hurt to ask for his help, its like gambling, the stakes may not be on your side, try your luck. Hopefully you hear winner winner chicken dinner.

The moon is your symbol,

You disappear from time to time,

But when i see you,

You brighten up those lost nights.

quote lucky13

Okay, so rite now, in my life, i'm wrongly accused for saying a certain bad word to certain someone. The hell -.- Have more compelling evidence and not point your finger at the first bad boy that comes to mind -.- You want trouble, i got my chance now.

The lucky heart who she replaced, i hope you make happier than i could have ever made. Next time you point that finger at me showing that you succeeded, i'll break it. Shes not a prize, not a trophy that you can hold up. Shes the girl that you show off regardless of how she looks like. I was happy with you but i'm happier that your with someone that can make you smile again. Bury knee deep in specks of sand i cant walk in, i watch alone as you live your new life.

The velvet sky lights up,

The way you showed me the light,

I see the moons defects from a far,

Like you but thats what i attracted too.

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

Exception

Looks To Kill

The past brings the present to life, and help develop the future.

quote lucky13

Lets all sing, IF you can wait till i get home. So lets begin, promises are suppose to kept from the heart. So why break that bond? Responsibilities aside. Put a fucking reminder or something. I cant promise anything i fucking cant care bout responsibilities. I don't make them cause i know i wont commit.

Okay, new thing in my life, WJM 7385. A Proton -.- but hey at least it gets me somewhere. Gonna start college soon. Excited i guess? I'm gonna have to wake the same time i go to sleep -.- Enough!

Judge yourself before judging others. Look in the mirror.

quote lucky13

Judge, Jury and Executioner. Now having that much power, you must have gone thru a phase of corruption. If not, congrats, your hard work has paid off. We need more less controversial leaders or at least the ones that do something bout the health and roads. There are so many construction sites and the roads aren't getting any better. I elect a person who wants attention and who would do work for his community. Corrupt or not, he gets the job done.

Buy and sell. Look in the mirror and see what are you flaws in your life. Are you happy? NO? Maybe those flaws makes you who you are and would project simple diversity. Nothing fancy. So who can hold a stick and state the obvious. Be proud but keep it to a sensible reason.

Its not easy for me to cry when my loved one stares into my my eyes,

You cant express what you feel inside cause the silence makes the moment by,

I love you to much to not point your flaws cause i'm in love with them,

Only time will tell what happiness means when its gone with the wind.

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

Circle, Cycle

Goal

Aim before striking, breath before shooting, think before doing, love to be loved

quote lucky13

A black for the road and thats not enough to bring me down. I'm not a soldier, but i fight for my loved one. To the land of forgiving if i must go to, then i shall fly first. Hopefully she could return the favour by doing the same. I'm not demanding for a smile, i want sincerity.

Okay, so now most of my friends are in college. I officially have no one to spend in the afternoon. The fact that i wake up at 3pm makes it so much better -.-

Now a heart, its a gift from God. Its meant to pump blood to your entire body. It works without rest since the day your mum was pregnant. The saying "heart broken" means that person is on the verge of dying. Now having another persons blood on your hands? Kinda of big deal. "Heartless" or "Cold-Hearted", i was once in that phase where i cant care for anything. I achieved this thru "heartache", but luckily i snapped out of that spell and hopefully i can piece my "Shattered Heart".

Things are never the same once you repeat it one to many times. Every kiss for lovers is another testament to each other showing that they are willing to give and take. Every breath makes things clear to see.

I just had a sudden realisation, how do people make things work. Its not compatibility, but the need to compromise others for your lover.

Its love,

Not the universe,

Its not confusing,

Its something special,

Shes danger,

But i love her.

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

Scream, Aim, Fire

Huntress

Does love last for those who cherish it so very dearly? Fiction or not, we want to believe in this incorruptible power which can drive man to build cities and love no matter the cost.

It may change a sane man crazy when his head over heels. It might make a saint wanting to sin. This invisible force can make you a total opposite and still make you feel happy with who ever you that special person is.

The false hope of love is still another form of love. Its not corrupted, it has its "butterfly in your stomach" effect. Not everyone is lucky with this false hope cause there are many of those who heartless enough to ace this trick.

The symbol of a heart shape is usually recognised as the symbol of love, but love needs no symbol cause itself has its magical and adrenaline moments. If you cant express in words, then do it in actions, not in symbols. I'm sure its an easy saying but difficult to exercise. Its love, who can judge you rite.

This is me when i'm really bored and i need to write a book -.-

I enjoy writing nonsense.

Thy heart i long to love and to hold,

I cry for thee when i grow weakness,

Trust not my actions but in my gestures,

Because for thee i'm head over heals.

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

Sonic Love

Shut Down

Lets talk about betrayal. This topic was suggested from my fellow friend Andrew Sachdev. Lets began shall we?

So what do you exactly mean by betrayal? When trust is broken. This is because society loves to gossip. Once its your turn to bitch about someone, who better than the friend who trusts you until the point of no expectation of betrayal. Its blind after a certain period of time. Who to blame, gossip is what makes forest burn faster.

Part2

Betrayal of trusts thru love. Now this venom is more potent than any know biological weapon. Its tears society curtain as if it was made out of paper. Sleeping with another is wrong, but with their best friend is another part all together. But why i ask this, cause i wonder what drives the one to blame to do such dishonest things. Human beings are very impossible to understand. Its not the theory of men are from mars and women are from venus. We compromise our own situation. Why go thru all that trouble to ruin a perfectly fine relationship. Dig yourself a deep hole, bury you head inside and see what feels like getting the wrong attention. This is a direct humiliation. Same thing as cheating :)

Song3

The art of war, i never read it. I'm sure it teaches you how to betray or purposely blind your opponent. Its the same thing as except for betraying the opponent shit. How heartless can you be to call yourself a lover if you cant do as promise. Heading towards the cliff, you promise you jump but you left the person to free fall alone. Tragic. But we need betrayal to remind us that we can be feel happy for one moment, and its totally gone. Makes us learn how to get back on our feet. It reminds that person that their still human and eventually it comes back to haunt you. And the worse part is, its being practised every second around this never ending rotating sphere.

Sincerely,

Convey the Messenger

ASD

Blow me a kiss from a miles away and blind from the lies everyone tells me.

Strike first and strong, leave me guessing and barely breathing.

Sleeping on cloud nine, sell my soul for eternities worth moments with you.

Metal plate i wear doesn't make me bulletproof, cause i find for a shatter proof love.

I swear to love and hold, that left me to rot.

Alerion, eternity, centuries

Sincerely,

Klam

Nothing is still something

Remember when you were young and innocent. How do you look at the world? The perspective of a 5 year old is much better than an educated coward. I say this cause kids speak their mind, they don't know societies boundaries and they cant be blamed. Silence them and the world calls that abusive.

Learn to live before loving

quote lucky13

Do you hold the weight of your loved one, cause you love them too much to not tell them whats happening. Bad decision. We learn to express our surroundings, so its the same thing as telling someone else that something went wrong. You being selfish, not wanting to spoil the moment. That would the downfall of us all.

Okay, so today, not much. I asked her to go on a date but the thing is that we haven't confirmed any time yet. So yeah, let the fireworks fly and see wheter your bulletproof self can handle the complication that i may give. Its all give and take once someone gets greedy, if things turn into a nightmare, i'll hide myself in the shadows till i get to love one more time.

Nice guys finsih last, but the last is better than nothing

quote lucky13

Lets say if i was a superhero. Who will give me strength in time of darkness, Superman had Lois Lane, Spiddy had Mary Jane. I guess every superhero has a forbidden love behind the scenes, but as long as i can make you safe, i can never be happier. Let me quote this; "No one is as lucky as us" quote Paramore-Where the Lines Overlap. I cant fly, i don't have super strength, but when i'm with you, i know nothing can harm you but my ignorance.

Why cant the world feed on the love we have for each other? Like the hurricane that destroys a town. It looks lovely but its deadly, like the smile you wear. Temptation is my weakness and you know how to exploit that very wall i build. Your the adrenaline rush that keeps me guessing.

Freedom of expression, freedom to live, freedom for redemption.

Leave a mark on the world, make a good impression, leave this world with a smile and no regrets

quote ....

Sincerely,

, End Later

Intimate Settings

How do you from a to c and not go thru b? Cheat.

How do you get away with murder? Corruption.

How do you get someone to believe? Cash.

How do you get someone to love you? ... Its your effort.

Lets start with loud music and xaxau lights. It distracts you from reality, and escape if you wanna call it that. The alcohol is the lubricant that makes everything easier and smoother.

Life has no boundaries, only guidelines

quote lucky13

Music is the greatest inspiration in my life "No Music, No Life"quote Osho. Lets not fake the orgasm and move on to the festivities, cause i'm tired of your bull shit so why lead me on? Crushcrushcrush,2,3,4, you can crush the dream but you cant corrupt the inspiration. Not even big brother can rule the soundtracks cause they only hold the labels of the records companies but they cant write all the songs. Let me quote this; "They will control us"quote Muse.

Okay, enough crap, so i gotta buck up and try to keep straight edged for a moment just so i can get back on my feet. I wanna look thru the glasses of society, look at the souls who follow a schedule and at war with themselves. Mentality of certain cultures must be in line.

Why build a fence when you have a gun? That extra sense of security is worth what? It can be compromised. So is a gun. So ask yourself, how are you safe? Simple, the up bringing of a child can determine their sense of security but i wanna see this theory walk.

Lets two steps back and recap on life what your dreams were a few years back. What made you have that sudden passion for that certain field of expertise. Every night, you close your eyes and dream that you will fulfil your aspiration. Can you get there? With determination and following societies order of life, anything is possible.

Look no further, cause examples of anything is everywhere

quote lucky13

Sincerely,

Begin Now,