Lyd called

Btw she just call me a minute ago at 22.50pm :)

L: Umar, i cant talk long.....

U: Lyd, iryan blogged today, wats up?

L: I cant talk long umar, i just wanted to say goodnight, i called iryan's phone he didnt pick up.

U: Lyd we all miss you :( Iryan misses you a lot, ain too

L: Can you tell iryan that i said goodnight, he didnt pick up my call.

U: Sure sure, goodnight lyd :)

To whom cares abt lyd, she sounded in a rush which she obviously was and she sounded ok and i think shes gonna stay for real :'(
She has been selfless for herself for all her frens so its only rite that we should give her wat she wants :)

Btw my blog is so colourful. I should remember more conversations more often :)

Gran Torino

After reading iryan's blog i wonder to myself, how the fuck is he gonna live without following the routine which was calling her in the morning, after skool and at night? I mean its gonna be hard, his obviously gonna change i noe that. So to who ever reads my blog, help iryan out :) His my bestfriend but he needs peoples support, you start a revolution alone, you need a dedicated crew with heart as strong as steel. We miss her to john :'(

Lets all lend a hand and give him a boost :) and btw john if your reading this, i studied in skool but then i fell asleep after a few questions but the effort was still there rite :p

I would tame the Stars for you :)

I would tame the stars for you cause in my heart, limitation isn't the problem but letting go is the pain of everything

Dont get it? Try again :)

2 days without skool

I didnt go to skool for 2 days on a week day :) but the gloomy part is that i've been coughing. That really sucks considering that im only 16 going 17 and i might get cancer for smoking for bout 3 straight and in those 3 years my attempts on stopping a tobacco stick was just once. Now i gotta really think my and make sure i really try and stop for good or just be a social smoker :P So this is my official statement saying im gonna try my best to stop smoking and live normally and pls help me go thru this process to whoever reads this :)

Priority

Today, hmmm today i woke up early and the first thing that hit me was words from lydiya razan, Priorities umar! so i did a small priority list which was
1- cut my hair ( i did that at about 5 when iryan was in desa but i didnt actually meet him -.- )
2- clean my room ( i did that around 8pm when my came home all stress up :/ but the weird thing was he gave me a hug, somethings wrong and i can feel it)
3- Study ( which im about to continue after i finish blogging :)

When i was in skool, someone smsed me and i thought it was something good but i helped her thru it, be strong ain (im trying my best so she doesn't regret going) Im surprised that for once i can talk about me thinking of the afterlife, can you imagine after you die? :s Its scary shit, i need comfot from this cause today in agama i actually stayed in class and learned abt ajaran sesat. Ustad saedin said stuff abt other cults which was freaky but i bared along. And today i think im gonna stop gambling, cause i technically lost abt 50 bucks when i clearly tried cheating with one guy that didnt noe anything. His wats called the current halal hand of the jupiter tradition. The only lucky malay that will win no matter odds stacked against him. I think i should call lydiya to see hows she doing, cause in asrama its hard to call i guess :/ and thank her for teaching me to use wat i love most as a good reminder :)

Lyd for you :)

The sunrise when a new day starts, when we go out, its always havoc with me and my deeds :)
but your like a mum that is so sporting ok, don change and not for a moment think of changing your ways cause your character is wat gives you, your charisma. Imperfection is you, close but better than perfect :) I hope you don change when you come back from college/colgate/boarding skool. Cause if you do, then it'll just be sad :'( See you soon lyd :)

SUNBURST :)

I was in the korn mosh pit and it was kinda crazy, scary and a lot more mixed emotions. but being me, i was looking for trouble and i got it :) i punched, kicked, body slammed people i barely knew and the best part was that they were drunk so they didnt noe wat hit them :p There was these 3 rempit indon people that was trying to corner me but i circulated around the pit and i almost got away but when someone jump and grab me into the mosh i got kicked rite at my leg and i fell in the middle and one more thing, when i fell foward my right knee muscle got streched the other way and it disabled me for about 2 minutes but i didnt give up without a fight. Scary shit eh :O but i got my battle scars to prove it. a busted lip and some bruises :)

Overall sunburst was the best concert i have ever been too, the feeling of just 12 hours of freedom is a taste of the big world. I too am a universal music lover, silent disco was something new to me. Kinda funny, take your headphones of and look at everyone, they look retarded cause the music came from the headphones :) I'm glad i went with Iryan, Lydiya, Ain, Syazwan, Nima, Zhaff, Zawir. Next year im coming again and it better have a metal band :)

Desa park city

It reminds me of aussie some how. I went there at 6, played football. Went to Adiva ( probably the best housing are ever) went swimming and then the sauna. Went Khana curry house, at cheap dinner but with unlimited rice :) Went cc and played 1.6 I kinda suck at it now but owh well, its just a game. Theres a new smell in the air and i think its rite :)

until next time. goodbite, buy bye bai :P

Black and Yellow

Should've done something
But i've done enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you

Should've said something
But i've said it enough
By the way my words were faded
Rather waste some time with you

Go blue go !

As the drummer in my marching house yesterday i was excited to show everyone the formation. We won second place for marching, second for tarik tali with yors truly as the captain and third for overall :)

1.Merah- fourth tarik tali, first marching
2.Ungu- first tarik tali, third marching
3.Biru- second tarik tali, second marching

This sucks :/

heart split in two :/

I've got no home
Ive messed things up

Do you appreciate me at all?
Im bleeding
Have I fucked things up again?
Im dying
No more time with you to spend

This hurts
Eyes are red
Now Im torn
Now Im torn

Ive been pulled again
When I see your face
My heart splits in two
Hearts split in two

Now im alone
I know ive got a chance with you
Do you like me at all?
Im crying
Should i wait for you?
Im dreaming
No more time to spend with you

This hurts
Heart so cold
Now Im torn
Now Im torn

Ive been pulled again
When i think of you
My heart splits into two
Hearts break in two

My heart so cold, so lonely
No arms, just dreams to hold me
Has my heart stopped beating?
Are we ever meant to be?
Ever meant to be

This hurts
Life gone wrong
Now Im torn
Now Im torn

Ive been pulled again
When I think of you
My heart splits into two
Hearts break into pieces

Im dreaming on
Ive fucked up things for now
Im dreaming on
Just give me a chance to smile?

Do you think of me at all?
Im crying
Im hoping
Im wishing

My hearts burst into fire ..

My new beginnig

I would give it all my best to start my life with a new beginning because when i saw the sunrise, i was inspired to give life and love another shot :)

Hmmm

I wish life is easy then it seems :/
I wish everything would fall into place and not become anti matter :?
I wish i can hear the calling so your not far from me :/

But wishful thinking is just anti matter rite, that seems to run far away from me :?